7 miles of rage

When I get mad, I go on runs. It's the best way for me to get out my frustrations. Over the years, this has only backfired once*. Thursday morning, I was supposed to go into work - I took my health check and honestly shared that I had a headache the night before and I did NOT pass the health check. I don't need to go into why that was so incredibly annoying to me, but it was. I ran out to Central Park and made it to my favorite waterfall where I could cry out all of my frustrations from the last month. All I wanted at this point was for someone to give me a hug and tell me that everything was going to be okay. I started listing in my mind all of the people I know that would so willingly do that if we were in the same area. At first, this just made me cry harder, but eventually, it helped me feel better. I remember when I moved to Utah I would repeat all of the time to myself "they are supposed to be there and you are supposed to be here and that's why you cannot be together." We are all on our individual journeys and sometimes our paths don't overlap as much as we would like. I would have given a lot to be able to visit UT or AR just for a few hours, but that is not my path. Turns out my path was all of Central Park that day. 

After this not-so-little sob session, I still had a lot of  – shall we say – "energy" built up, so I proceeded to run the rest of Central Park. Which turns out was 7 miles. I have never run 7 miles before and it also happened to be my 3rd fastest time. I should clarify that my frustration was more than just not being able to go into work – that was just the match the started the flame. 

The great thing about this method is that once you get back, you are too tired to be mad! I honestly felt so much better. Smelling the cinnamon nut trucks in the park is something that always brings a smile to my face, and it truly was a beautiful day. I'm so happy I get to soak up this incredible weather right now. 

*I was on a rage run and tripped and threw my phone. It cracked the screen. I'm still using that cracked screen.